I saw you
today. I saw you when I handed a
homeless woman a ten dollar bill on the corner of the highway. I saw you in her beaten down eyes, and I
heard you in that heavy voice. Those
eyes have seen more sadness than happiness.
Those eyes lost their sparkle many years ago. Tears ran down my face as I drove away,
because I knew it wasn’t really you. All
I knew at that moment… is that I will never forget you.
I saw you in the face of a stranger weeks ago in the grocery store. I saw shades of you with a man that had beaten down your self-confidence. I saw you with only a few meager things in
your cart because that was all you could afford. I wanted to rescue you. I wanted to take you
home with me, feed you and help you start a new life.
I hear your
voice in my heart, saying good bye. I
hear it so often. I see your eyes,
locking with mine as we drive away, taking our beautiful daughter home. Our beautiful daughter, a priceless gift from
you and our heavenly father above.
I remember
your words. I remember our conversations
about your family history. Times that we
learned about our daughter’s heritage.
Times that we will never forget. Times
when our nerves were raw and our hearts were on the line.
I remember
the sobs. Deep, wracking sobs that I
cried. I remember wondering where they
were coming from, and realizing that they were coming from me. I remember that torn feeling. I still know it. The best thing that has ever happened to us
was one of the saddest days of another’s life.
A day does not go by that I don’t thank God for the immeasurable gifts
he has given us. A day does not go by
that I don’t realize the magnitude of your gift to us. It will never be forgotten.
I smile
today. I smile because we were
chosen. We were chosen by you, to become
our daughter’s mother and father. We were chosen by God to be a mother and
father through the gift of adoption. I
smile today, because I’m remembering our sweet girl’s entrance to the
world. I smile today, because I am a
mother. I am a mother!
